a time for thanks...

all right, so in the past week or so God has just been pouring new things into me. its been a little overwhelming, but in such a great way.
with this whole project in the making...its just so big and so crazy - that sarah and i were sure that every time we would bring it up to someone when asking for their help with it in one way or another that they would just look at us and say no. thats crazy and there is no time for that.
but so far...and we have met with QUITE a few ppl...no one has done that. no one has said no. and that in and of itself is a God move. God is just paving the way, preparing hearts and gifts and resources for it and its absolutley incredible.
and something that God has been revealing to me is that i dont ever take the time to stop, and look at what He has just done and just appreciate it, let the reality of what He's just done really sink in and just thank Him and rejoice in Him that He is providing in ways only He can. i dont do that...i just let out a sigh of relief that another obstacle has been cleared and then keep fighting for the next one.
but God has got it under control. He really does. and He has been showing me and helping me see what He has been doing.
its like He's doing all these things all the time and i dont even notice, and He's sitting there going - Jillian, look! im doing all this so that you can see it and smile and know im here and feel peace knowing that i am doing it!!! and you are not even looking! - and i know that i do that all the time. i get so focused on the big picture...but that is His job. i just need to follow Him step by step and rejoice and be excited with Him all along the way.
God is so good...it truly just floors me when i really stop to think about all that He has done.
this morning in church we sang "tis so sweet to trust in Jesus" and there is a line in there that says -
Jesus, Jesus, how I trust Him!
How I’ve proved Him o’er and o’er;
Jesus, Jesus, precious Jesus!
Oh, for grace to trust Him more!

and that just hit me. how true! how many times have i SEEN Jesus work and answer prayer???
just in the last day or so, looking at the God that i have come to know.
He has blessed me with incredible people in my life, He called me to Argentina - then provided every single penny and resource i needed for that AND to go to Belize. He provided a great job, brought to the surface what His gifts in me are and then put them to use in providing an incredible team of artists who just love Him and want to see Him work, and He has consistently revealed to me step by step everything i need to know when i need to know it. i have not been idle with nothing or no signs or hope for even one second. its TRULY amazing. and its so Him.
He has proved Himself real and faithful more times that i can count in big ways and small ways...and i just pray for strength to keep trusting.
how beautiful that we can trust Him? that He wants to make sure we see that He is moving and paying attention to our prayers!!!
i am SO thankful for Him and for the team He has put together, for dreams coming together and for being able to know that He will never fail. Never.
how amazing that that is the God we know. the one true holy God. He loves us. wow.