and back to...ALIVE!

so...being back from Mexico for a week now - sarah and i realize that we MISS the team! haha i miss the team, i miss being around ppl all the time, i miss the country, i miss doing ministry 24/7...i MISS it. but i havent had a ton of time to think about it either...its been a crazy week! i was in a wedding this weekend, one of my best friends/favorite cousins got married to an amazing guy and it was just such a cool reminder of Gods perfect timing and plan and just His amazing love. He is just so good. :)

but now that the trip is over, the wedding craziness is done, my life is now a WHOLE lot quieter. its weird. im not suuuurrreee that i love it. haha

BUT the good news is that on thursday we are having a final missions team meeting (yay!) and then next thursday we are starting our ALIVE meetings back up!!!

so excited. its been way too long.

not even sure what we are going to be doing or working on - yet again i find myself waiting. waiting for what my next move should be, waiting for a call from God...just waiting...

my heart is just feeling so restless!!! i have SUCH a passion to be doing ministry - this ministry or something really similar - full time. i have a passion for other cultures and for just people in general and i just keep feeling like God has this plan that is coming together EVER SO SLOWLY (some words that i keep being reminded of....2 Peter 3:8-9 But do not overlook this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness...& Habakkuk 2:3 - basically...patience! God knows what He's doing) but do you ever just get tired of WAITING???

i know His time is perfect and i wouldnt want to do anything outside of His timing...because it wouldnt work the same...He knows better than i do, and i trust that.

but the thing about surrendering all of ourselves, all our desires, all our plans...

is that we are left with waiting.

i realized today again that i am 100% at the mercy of His plan right now. without His leading.......i got nothin. i have NO idea what comes next for me, for ALIVE, for missions, for anything.

but i know its up to God...and because of that i am just so ready to see what it is He has! God is just stirring up my heart for people and missions lately...just small reminders of what He has called me to...and its tough to be reminded of all of it while im still in the waiting period BUT it also reminds me not to give up, not to get too comfortable with where i am right now...because i need to keep listening, keep seeking - always.

so here i am...just using this time to hang out with the team, keep working, allow Him to prepare me and the rest of the team for whatever it is that is coming.

because He is working...i have no doubt about that.

so next thursday we begin again!!! pray that we will hear God's voice in where to go next.

and for those of us that were in Mexico - pray that the experience will stay with us and continue to shape us.