if you had the option...

so last week Tom Gildow talked about getting revelations from God...and how we can spend weeks trying to figure something out, trying to think of something, etc...and then all of a sudden God will show up in a big way and in a matter of seconds...it all just makes sense. and you are just amazed at what He is showing you...

just a few moments in the presence of God can teach you, show you, and impact you more than weeks of thinking and trying on our own power. its crazy stuff. thats God.

anyways...so this morning in our sunday school class the Loft Bill Roland was talking about the Bible and what is the Bible? and He asked a question, a question ive heard before but for whatever reason, i thought about it differently this morning. here is the question...

"if you had the option to have God around just sometimes...would you do it?"

and i just thought about it and my first reaction was "well no, because i would feel bad if i did that..." and then i realized that i would bring Him everywhere because if i didnt i would feel guilty...that was my initial reaction.
but should that be the motivation? real quickly after that thought came into my mind, i also thought - well too, because i love Him, i want Him around all the time...but why wasnt that my first thought?

i felt God speaking to me this this morning...i need to strive to be in a place where if God wasnt a part of my everyday life, that i would miss Him. that life wouldnt just be harder and more challenging, but where i love Him so much that just a small amount of time outside of His presence causes me to miss Him and long for Him.

i should push away that question with an "of course i wouldnt take that option" - not because i feel guilted into it...but because i want Him there, next to me all the time. because i LOVE Him.

and it sounds so crazy to talk that way about someone that is not a physical person standing right in front of you that everyone can see...but He is so present and so close and so personal - that its possible to love Him that much, and feel Him that closely, and know Him that intimately...

amazing, right???

i pray that we can strive for that, pray for that, work for it and fight for it and just never stop - even when it gets tiring or hard.
that we can allow Him to be a part of every part of us...and just love that He is there.