why is it easier to claim death instead of life?

a quick thing going off of yesterday's post...God gave me some clarity on things that weren't so clear yesterday. He is just pouring new truths in...but last night someone brought up Hosea 13:6...and then posed the question -
"why is it easier to claim death than life?"
and i was like wow, i just spent the morning thinking about that!
and i just thought about why we allow ourselves to be hurt by everything else before we even try His way.
...and she read the verse mentioned above that says...
"but when they grazed, they became full,
they were filled, and their heart was lifted up,
therefore they forgot about me."
(in another version it says they became proud, therefore they forgot about me)
but wow. also - God has been showing me that He IS and always will be trustworthy.
and God put that question on my heart again...why is it easier to claim death instead of life?
...because sometimes it is easier to believe and trust in something that we have earned ourselves, in something that we feel we have control over...even if it will disappoint us.
because its easier to be disappointed by ourselves than by God.
We dont test Him because we become afraid that He will fail...and that would shake everything we have to believe in.
Like the verse says, we go to God for help, He lifts us up, we feel good and gain back our confidence...and we forget about Him. We forget He is the very one who gave it back to us.
We dont want to rely on Him because its scary.
does that resonate with anyone? this is something i never thought about before, but was definitely true for me for a long time.
Satan tried to get to me yesterday, tried to plant doubts in me that the things God has told me aren't real, arent true.
but God used it to show me that all satan can do is plant doubts. he cannot change God's plan. he can make us THINK God is not trustworthy, but he CANNOT MAKE GOD UNTRUSTWORTHY.
how powerful is that??? nothing can change who God is!!!
someone gave me Psalm 91 to read yesterday and here is a part that just instilled a peace in me...
"His faithfulness is a shield..."
nothing is going to penetrate or get past that shield...because He is faithful.
so we can trust Him, we can go to Him and not have to be afraid of ever being disappointed by God...He calls us to a whole perfect holy peaceful life...one that only He can give. Dont be afraid to trust Him, Dont settle for anything less.